Monday, September 17, 2012

Pregnant ???!!!!

So, it was this time last year we learned we were pregnant, Labor Day weekend to be precise. Many of you have asked, so I'll tell you the story. See, last year about this time, I had lost almost 40 pounds. I was exercising, watching my diet, and doing all the stuff I should. I was feeling better than I had since having the boys,...,,,, until I started feeling awful. You know, nothing specific, no appetite, lingering nausea, and a few other symptoms. I told Jamie, I have to get to a doctor. I just knew something was wrong. Of course, I had it made up in my mind it was something serious, after all, I should be feeing my best.

On Friday before Labor Day while having lunch with some friends, one of them make a remark that they haven't felt like that since they were pregnant. I think they were referring to their hunger, but the only word i heard was pregnant! So, I started thinking about my symptoms and thinking, that is exactly how I felt when I was pregnant. Reluctantly, I bought a pregnancy test thinking that is the first question any reasonable doctor would ask, just so I could say I was positive that wasn't the cause of my symptoms. I mean more than one doctor told us we could never have a child on our own. I took the test all alone knowing that it would be negative. When I looked down and saw those two lines, I nearly passed out. I was thrilled and scared to death. After all, more than one doctor said it could never happen on our own, so I worried it was too good to be true. I wish I had a camera to get Jamie's expression. He was elated, and shocked beyond belief. It's hard to believe that was a year ago. Hannah is here and perfect. She is 4 months old, with 2 teeth, and sassy as can be. I wouldn't trade that little miracle for anything!

First day blues!

4 months!!!

Can you believe it? Time is flying!

The new normal

So, many of you have asked how it is going now that everyone is back at school. I could lie and say it's all great, but I've really never been one to hide my feelings. It's going... Truthfully, I miss being home with Hannah. I know she's in great hands, but I can already see she is growing way too fast. See, I had the benefit of staying at home with the boys for their first year. It was the hardest job I've EVER had, but I was happy I got to have all those firsts with them. I can't help but feel like I'm missing out a little.
We are finding our way. We are finding our new normal. See, normal always changes. My normal used to be mommy to 3- seven year old boys, full-time teacher, yada, yada, yada. My new normal is mom to 3-8 year old boys, and a baby girl, full time teacher, and the list goes on and on. My new normal includes football mom. See, I haven't been that in awhile. I'm having to learn my new normal. Learning a new normal can be a lot of fun, but it is pretty exhausting until you figure it out. That's where we are.... We are learning the new challenges, trying to be creative and overcome. We'll figure it out. We always do. In the meantime, work with me, we're doing everything we can to remain pleasant during these growing pains.
Don't judge, I think we have had pizza three different times in the last 7 days. That's alright.... At least it was hot and edible. If it's any consolation, we did get to bed on time with our teeth brushed. One step at a time people....
While we're figuring out this normal, I'll stop time so nothing changes. Lord knows tomorrow may be a new-new normal!